It was your face that struck me —
rock star grace.
And I was helpless to love you.
Tho I began uncertain,
you swayed me
with those kind eyes,
that sweet smile of yours
and such depths of laughter.
Life was in your voice —
seized and savored.
I wanted to share as much with you as you would let me,
pretend I was your geeky sister
who wanted to go to all the fab parties too,
who wanted to protect you from the dangers of the world as well.
I have failed you, failed myself
as your surrogate sister —
lost you forever from this mortal soil.
You come to me in thoughts, in dreams,
a voice from the ether of memory —
close and confiding.
I saw you dancing in the park
to that tune they played for you.
You were smiling. You were laughing.
And I miss you